One thing that I am really ashamed of as a mother, are those seasons where I got into the habit of yelling at my children. It was so sad. I would see them retreating behind a shell. I would try to do better. I would fail again. There is nothing so disheartening as failure, especially failure in something so important.
My own efforts to overcome yelling failed. But do you know what worked? Regular time with God. When I am spending time reading God’s Word and praying every day, I find myself turning to God in times of frustration instead of being ruled by impatience.
The goal is high, impossibly high. I can become exhausted when I focus on how far I fall short of the Proverbs 31 woman who:
Opens her mouth with wisdom,
And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
I can become discouraged when I think of my shortcomings compared to the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. (1 Peter 3:4) But when I focus on God He reminds me that nothing is impossible for Him, that He is doing a work in me and that:
I can do all things through Christ
who strengthens me!